The holiday season reminds me of the numerous times I was told to look at my cancer as a gift.
While I understand the meaning and well-intention behind the words,
this is truly not only a gift I could have done without,
it is also not a gift I would wish for anyone else to receive.
Being afraid for my life,
dealing with treatment and its side effects,
and trying to balance treatments with taking care of my three girls – none of it was or felt like ‘a gift’.
Finding my inner strength to fight cancer, taking responsibility for my treatment options and choices, and specifically taking the road less taken by choosing clinical trials – specifically a clinical trial that ended up saving my life – that’s (!) what I’m thankful for.